This past year has been interesting. I am not where I planned to be when I started this year. I am so thankful for that!! I love the roller coaster of life and how regardless of the changes you are always safe and okay. God and the universe is always looking for what is best for you. We just have to trust, let go and accept the things we come across. The more you fight change, the more unhappy and negative you become.
This past year I dealt with the toxic things in my life. I dealt with the toxic emotions in me by going to therapy and talking things out. It has been one of the healthiest decisions of my life. I put so much pressure on myself by holding in anxiety and self hate. I had always refused counseling because I knew that if I did that I would be admitting I had a problem. My emotions are now much more grounded. I have seen amazing changes in the way I react to problems. I am so thankful to my friends and family who supported me with my decision.
I moved into a new apartment all my own. It is very small but perfect for me and my cats. In the move I got rid of a lot of excess things that I was carrying around and it felt so good to get rid of it all. It was difficult at first. Letting go of items you have pretend attachment to can seem daunting at first. However I downsized my life to an incredible amount. This helped clean my life up also. No more paying for a storage unit that holds items that have bad memories attached to them. Today I can say I love my apartment and I love everything that is in it. I have everything I need and I am blessed for that.
I decided to get rid of toxic friends and relationships. I realized I had spent too much time and energy on people who were not doing anything positive for my life. They were not helping me grow as a person. A couple of them were cloaked in the idea that they were positive aspects of my life. On further evaluations I discovered that I was being emotionally drained and these people were feeding off my failures and sucking my energy in order to make themselves feel better or validated. This was very difficult because every one of these people had been in my life for a long time and had played large parts in it. In the end it was completely for the best, and I am happier and have opened new room in my life for others to come in.
When I moved into this apartment I also made the decision to throw out every toxic cleaning supply I had. I didn't stop at cleaning supplies. I also threw out all toiletries including make up that had chemicals, were tested on animals or were from major corporations. I can now say everything in my house is completely natural and nothing has been tested on animals. I make my own cleaning supplies, some of my make up, and I only buy natural products.
I worked on relationships with my family. We worked through a lot of hurtful things that had happened, mostly done by me. We have come together again and put so much behind us. We are closer than ever and I love spending time with them. I have come back to church and Jesus. That has made a huge improvement in our lives. It has helped me put away a lot of my anger and hatefulness. I have been opened up to love and allow love into my life again.
So 2013 was a great cleansing year. I plan to continue my adventure in 2014. I am so happy with my life. I have three wonderful jobs that I absolutely adore. I am in a great place to be able to say I work all those jobs because I want to and not because I have to. After this year I have made the decision if you don't like something, chose something else. My cats are wonderful, healthy, and happy. I continue to give them love and attention and they do the same in return. Having animals is a wonderful experience and I am thankful to have a connection with them everyday. I plan on continuing and furthering my fight for animal rights. There were a lot of small victories in 2013 and a few large ones. I am excited to see what the new year brings in that arena! I have also met an amazing man who is so so good to me. He is positive, inspiring, and brings out the best in myself. He has definitely been brought into my life with purpose and I could not be more thankful for that. Here is to 2014!! Another great year ahead of all of us!!!!
